What’s the source for your thoughts?
Who/what is your guide?
A culture? A group?
Ultimately you are being led by a spirit, and if that culture, group, or spirit has errors within it, your soul is in danger eternal.
Find the only trustworthy guide immediately.
See my article "Inexpressible Joy".
Psalm 27:4, "One thing i have desired of the LORD, that will i seek: that i may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to inquire in His temple". 34:8, Oh taste and see that the LORD is good. Blessed are those who put their trust in Him.